Macey is six months today…well a few days ago now.
Motherhood, for me, has been a constant stream of flashbacks and flash-forwards. It’s been a combination of beaming pride and utter panic. It’s something I️ feel I️ was made for, and yet is the hardest thing I’ve ever done.
And every day she’s bigger.
Just yesterday I was pregnant. Just yesterday we were telling my parents they were going to be grandparents. Just yesterday I took a pregnancy test. ALL THIS WAS JUST YESTERDAY, right!? And yet some days feel lonely and slow, like they last an eternity. My once task-filled work day has turned into 25 diaper changes and making up words to the lullaby music the sound machine makes. It’s new and different, exhausting and beautiful.
A few new things have happened since entering mama-hood.
I cry when commercials come on that deal with any sort of parenting topic. You know the Tide commercial where the dad is washing his daughter’s princess outfit so she gets to be sheriff for the day? Bawling. And the Subaru commercial where the boy and his dog grow up together and then his parents send him off to college in the family Subaru? Sobbing. And the University of Phoenix commercial where the grandma works hard so her granddaughter can have a better life? The flood gates burst wide open.
I’m learning to use my time more efficiently, and I don’t mean checking things off my to do list. I mean putting my phone down, holding her close, letting her touch my face with her sweet little hands, and just being. Pretty soon she’s going to be crawling, talking, and then getting in her Subaru and going off to college.
Slow down, baby girl.
I love your full face smiles, that bald spot on the back of your head, the way you put your toes together when you’re laying on your back, and how you’re starting to reach your little hand out for me when you want to say hi.
Happy six months little pumpkin.
XOXO,
Mama
Anna says
Oh my goodness. Speaking of tears!! The sweetest post!! Love this becca and Your amazing mama heart!!!! Love you!!
Becca says
Love you!!!!